Monday, July 30, 2007
Working at Isetan Scotts is so much better than working at the boutique. The whole area is filled with girls of my age and we can really click. They're nice people. Sales there are good too. So work is fine and fun for the whole of last weekend. Enemy for life is just working a level down me. Haha.
Robin's 18th birthday is approaching. And I'm broke. So broke that I can't even afford a present for him, the drinks and the dinner. I need money. And my hp bill is like oh my god! I got to really save up man. Bread with peanut better perhaps will be really great for the next few days.
My god. I don't know what's wrong with my mind and my heart. The mind said carry on with life. But the heart says otherwise. Sometimes, I really hope I can turn back the time. If only I can. Seriously.
What can I do to stop making myself feel this way.
What can I do to make you care.
What can I do to forget everything.
What can I do to make you really love me.
What can I say and do now,
When I'm already sunk so down into it.
I can only,
cry in the dark.
make me smile ((=
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Drunk on first day of school.
Lessons were so bored and we turned into photowhoring. Finally saw my long-lost classmates. Especially those China peeps. Dramatic changes since I last saw few. Missed "Handsome" the most. Well, dont be mistaken. He's actually big in size but I gave him that nick. He's friendly and a nice guy.
So when lesson ended, he invited us over to a pub his friend opened at Chinatown. The place is cosy and nice decorations. So "Handsome" opened a bottle of Martell for us. And he said, "Not enough, order more!" And worst still, he bought each of us a brand new packet of ciggs when he took our 1 stick of cigg. LOL. He's brady rich la. You can't imagine what kind of job he holds. But well, he's definately a nice guy.
There's this part when we're taking pics. So "Handsome" was putting his hand on my waist and he said, "Nicole you've got a small waist!"
And Cherilyn goes, "Hmpff. You should hold mine. Mine is so much smaller lo pls!!"
I can't stop but laughing at her. She's gonna marry "Handsome" soon for his money. LOL. Saw the white shirt guy? That's "Handsome". Our best buds from China. Loves. ((=
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
Fireworks at Esplanade was great yesterday. Had dinner over at some coffee shop with Roger and CCC. Burget, thus small amount of money and restaurant taste. Roger got bored and had fun with my camera. And he goes.
"Left. Yes Yes. Now right. Yes Yes. Now top view. Oh Yeah."
Trying to act photographer. Fail! He's always full of nonsensical stuff. And he asked me along to join him in the not straight club at Tanjong Pagar. So PLAY was really fun. Not a single people there is straight so forget the idea of getting hunks or babes. Go there and enjoy the fun. Everyone over there is so friendly. It's just so enjoyable. And seriously, Roger has a bunch of fab friends! ((= Something interesting took place. When I was dancing at the dancefloor. A gay approached me with a handphone. So there's this Les that wanted to know me. She's ain't butch and perfectly dressed up a babe. Fucking hot la. We had a small conversation and she took my contact. Haha. Interesting!!
Roger, pls ask me along to PLAY next time. Perhaps, I might turn out to be the regular there. ((=
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
Cafe Del Mar 20.07.07
Wanted to go for some tanning session initially but the moment we reached there, dark clouds everywhere. There's totally no sun at all. So we just sit and chill by the beach at Cafe Del Mar. So whole night, Vivi is just spending her last day with Rahman. Kinda pity that things still turn out this way. Well, he's seriously a nice guy la! But too bad. The timing is just so wrong for the both of them. Don't worry dude, still friends! ((=
Dearest Cher and me got so bored than we turned our boredom into photowhore. Surprised, Fazli came all the way from C.C.K to Sentosa and look for me. Well, he said he's got no plans too. So he's there for like less than 2hrs and we left. Was supposed to went drinking with Hao but did something stupid and ridiculous that really pissed him off.
Guess I'm too tired and that's explains everything. Ended up, a big light bulb the whole night. V and R was suppsoed to have some personal thing but well I'm there and I spoilt their night I guess. Dont blame me pls. How the hell will I know I'm so blur and did the most embrassing thing in my whole life. Damn! Thinking back, got my face whole red!
The pics are taking sucha long time to upload. I'm gonna upload the rest when dearest Cher send me.
Have a great weekend.
Love.
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Thursday, July 19, 2007
Finally I had my tan!! Look so much healthier now ((=
Was home at 2plus the previous night. All thanks to Roger, had to wake up damn early like 7.30am today to go for tanning session over at Tampines Swimming Complex. It started to rain heavily the moment we reached. So changed to Plan B. Had breakfast and finally tanning session at 12pm. Freaking hot! But I love my tan!
And I'm going for another tanning session at Sentosa tml with dearest Cher. Cafe Del Mar, we shall go. Never been there before wonder how's it like. Heard from Cher that it's pretty cosy with bed and sea view plus sun-tanning. Shiokness man! So we gonna be there for another tanning and then chilling at the same place later time with Rahman and Vivi.
This pic was taken on 10March06. When we first went tanning together. Just the 2 of us.
And I'm browsing through Cher's multiply and found alot of funny pictures and past memories. Those were the days. . .
How time flies. It's been 7YEARS!! Dont know what lead to our closeness today. Probably our outgoing character? For both of us like to crap alot. All thanks to Vivi, I know one of my best girlfriend today. She gets to know all of her exs with my help and I simply love her. Cause she's there for me during my lowest point of life. Same goes to Vivi.
How time flies seriously man. We're getting older and closer as days go by. And I love my bunch of fab friends to the max. ((=
** suntanning tml Cher. Dont put me rocket! **
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Today is supposed supposely to go Mambo Jumbo. Well, everything was cancelled last min. So I'll be out to town later on with dearest Roger and Vivi and one of her friend.
Plenty of friends are going Zouk tonight. Damn. And I'm not going. Gonna missed out the fun and drinking session with them.
Friday, Cafe Del Mar. Rahman, Vivi, Leon and his date plus me. Can you see that! I'm definately gonna be the belonging caretaker! WTH. Rather to go in a big group and have fun than me alone going with couples. Sucks!
School gonna reopen real soon. Need to get couples of things. Gonna hit Popular soon with my girls. Well, having school is not diff from holidays. Timetable is still slack though.
A big "HELLO!!" to Rocky Master at Cine cause we will be there slacking our time away since we got 3hrs break in between lessons on some days. Others, just purely 2-3 hrs a day. My school hours just sucks big time.
I just feel everything so fucked up now! My life sucks, my school sucks and my work sucks too!!!!!
I need some smoke!
Ciao!
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Monday, July 16, 2007
Zouk was last min on Sat. It seriously sucks. Firstly, the crowd. Secondly, the music. Thirdly, not much friends went. Worst of all, we met a minor accident when dearest Vivi was driving me on the way there. So the night turns into boredem.
And Hazel goes, "Dont want. Clubbing with you all is so sian!" when I asked her to come along with us for the Mambo Jumbo this coming Wednesday.
Hello. Look who's talking okay! You should feel happy that we asked you along otherwise your life just gonna be like work, sleep, eat. Piss me off!
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And I just got back from a picnic outing organised by dearest Vivi. It turns out real good since it's been like a year where we last been to beach and just enjoy the breeze and chill. So it was great. We took tons of pictures and it's still transfering to me by Robin. Thanks ah Robin!
Again, we bought too much food.
There's so many pics to be uploaded. I'm just gonna upload some ((=
The pictures are very hilarious right? Thanks to the macbook which produces such effects.
Anyway, I truly enjoyed my day. It's great to be out at the beach with best buds, than drinking everyday.
Talking about drinking, we gonna hit Zouk this Wednesday again. Mambo Jumbo! And Rachel's gonna be there too. So it's purely girls night out and seriously, it's the last night out partying cause school gonna reopens in 6days time.
Ciao! ((=
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Friday, July 13, 2007
Drinking at Dbl O was cancelled last night. Sick and tired of going to Zouk. Wanted to try something relaxing, fun and exciting.
So we went BBQ last min, without booking any pit.
The food and stuff was all bought last min from Cheers over at Downtown.
It turned out pretty good!
We chill, smoke, chat and had fun. With just the close friends. Had some beer. And Vivi, the super lousy beer-drinker, went KO with just one can of beer. Got herself super red and then vomitted 3/4 times I guessed? Haha. No more beer for her pls. She can't drink beer la!!
And there was this part where I actually report police. There was this bunch of small little kids aged around 13-15. And they were smoking, shouting and dancing at some pit near us. This got all of us super irritated. So we report the police.
"Illegal gathering. Young kids smoking. Noise pollution," and so I said.
Soon enough, the police came and checked all of them. But couldn't find any ciggs. Know why? Cause they threw everything under the tree! And they managed to get off.
So Cher and CCC left early. Left behind only me, Rahman and Vivi. Imagine how the situtation was. So fcuking werid with me and them. And so I called Alvin..ccs.
Mind you. He's just 17? And we know him 2yrs back at Chai Chee sec. Long story and it's pretty ridiculous. The moment he reached, non-stop noise pollution. But it's kinda good we catch up with life. Still remember the times over at the birthday's chalet, the CNY lim period, the slacking time at Cine. It was fun back then hanging out together.
But over time, he's too young for us. His thinking, his actions. Super Ah Beng la! But still a nice young boy though. ((=
So next week gonna be the last week of holiday before saying "Hello to NAFA". And we had plans already. Wed gonna hit Mambo Jumbo. One of the weekends gonna overnight at Cafe Del Mar with the usual gang.
I can't imagine how great it gonna be. Lying on those beds just next to the sea, with the sea breeze, chat, smoke and do crazy things with great friends! Damn I'm so looking forward to it. Friends make time for that okay. Last week of holiday and fun together!!!!
And it's Saturday today. I'm like got no plans!! Shit la. Ask me out if you're free to okay!!
I so miss my long hair!
Ciao!
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Thursday, July 12, 2007
Zouk last night was alright la. Both me and Vivi finally had a taste of Flame Lambogini. We drank one glass each. Not really that good but of course taste better than L.I.T and Graveyard. My stomach was burning and it's so uneasy with a hot feeling burning inside. And we had more. There's this sweet liquor Rahman bought and it taste great la.
But we got KO before 12, again. Just feeling high.
Dancefloor at Phuture was fcuking packed. Like forever. So squeezy that it got all of us unhappy. Cant even have proper fun with friends. Just stand there and people will push you so there's not even a need to move to the music la. Ladies' Night at Zouk is always like this.
So we went Mambo Jumbo. It's super super fun there la. Jump to the music. And Hazel goes, "Yo! Yo! Yo!" She's having fun with Roger, so am I. ((= Poor Rahman, he got hooked by some indian guy. Who was like hugging him and jump at the same time. Funny! And poor Viviene. She step on some broken glass, all thanks to the indian who was pushing around. She got the big one out on her feet, but there's like some small bits stuck inside. She seems that she can't even be bothered with those. My god. Pls faster get it out otherwise, Roger gonna design an artifical feet for you to fit on. Get those bits out!!!!!!
Rahman, Leon and Nic are nice guys. Rahman always goes, "C is for Cookie!" Ya right. Wait till I open my mouth and ask you about f.r.i.e.n.d.s! And I dont know what caused the shy-ness between me and Leon. So he is like a hackcare attitude and super shy guy to me. But he seems nice and decent. It's been like the 4th time I clubbed with them? And it was never once, that he sort of dirty dance with a girl. The most decent guy I ever met. So decent that, we never even really talk to each other. Well, Rahman said he's shy. And I guessed. He's really shy!!! Nic, the forever msging guy.
Went to Mac. And Roger started his jokes. Now I know why indians are afraid to lao sai and how they communicate! LOL.
Mambo Jumbo was so much happening than Phuture. Let's hit Zouk next wed one last time before school reopens.
((= Ciao!
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
As I was reading the past entries in Viviene's blog, I passed by this entry which is just meant for me!
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If you need a friend i am here. I give comments not bluntly, but truthfully. Truth hurts - Thats a fact.
Comments are here, my opinion your choice if you accept it or not.
Consequences are the bearings of choices made. Bad consequence for a mistake made. Good consequences for good judgement in decision making.
The main point is, its all about choice. The things YOU choose.
The heart and mind often give different readings. In general, girls follow their heart and guys follow their mind. Which is supposely better, our brain gives logical thinking.
And anyway, its good to compare yourself to the better ones once in a while to give yourself motivation and improve. Never look back to people who are lousier and say things like "see, they also ma".
I've paid for the mistakes i made, its locked in head as a reminder. Afterall, the mistakes you've done, you have to bear it yourself.. friends,lovers,family who to help? At most a few piece of advice. Thats all. Be sure, avoid all mistakes, do right.. for the sake of your own life.
Your decisions and accomplishments are what people are going to regconize you as. Ask, what have you achieve so far. Spending so much money from baby till now, Eating all the good food.. what is the outcome. Anything u can think of that u've accomplished and contribute to the society?
To my friend nicole. Your life is not smooth sailing, as all of us are. Perhaps yours is tougher. The people you treasure treats you the opposite, they may not be good. But you have a choice to deal with them. Job sucks, leave. Friends sucks, change. Stupid people, ignore. All decisions lies in your hands.
Always always always do a favour for yourself.
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That's my best girlpal! That's what a true friend is. 10yrs of friendship really counts. Her advices always lock as a remainder in my head. People whom I treasure treated me the opposite, so why should I torture myself? Ya. My life is not smooth-sailing at all but at least better as compared to Hazel. I always meet the wrong guy. Sad to admit, but I'm still having misses for him.
After reading this entry like the 2nd time? Perhaps, it's really time for me to always always always do myself a favour. It's about the things I CHOOSE.
After today, I'm gonna be a brand new Nicole.
I'm gonna forget everything.
And make life easier for myself.
Studies and good career is what I pursue now.
I don't need a guy.
But I need my girls.
This gonna sounds mushy. But I really.
Love you girls ((=
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Was out to Vivo yesterday with my girls. It's been like thousand of donkey years since I last been there. Well, it was great. Bought a dress and Roger's comment, always the best!
"looks more like $4.80 rather than $48" !!!!!
After Vivo, we went slacking at hans. Vivi, Roger, Cher, Rahman, Hazel and CCC were all present. So we were like crapping and it's like forever, "Yong forever the bully-er and Nic, the Bullied" as stated by Vivi. When Roger finally chased Hazel home, we headed to the same slacking place. Cher's balcony. There's a great place to slack when it's at night la. Super cooling can!
So at the balcony. Roger was having fun bullying me! And Vivi, her nice chat with R. Cher, the onlooker. Ohya. Roger's songs really sucks. He kinda finds difficulty sticking to a song and till it finished before switching to another. It's pretty . . . when you keep changing songs halfway! HAHA.
Guess what people, it's our long-awaited WEDNESDAY!! So it's gonna be party again tonight! Flame Lambogini and Graveyard. Pls get Vivi drunk or rather, Roger or Rahman. I feel better getting people drunk rather than me drunk. Otherwise, the night sure gonna be wasted when I'm drunk cause it just gonna be puking!
And. I've got no themes for the dress-code tonight. This may sounds ridiculous but that's Girls okay! 7hrs more to Vivi's hse and then ZOUUUKKKK!!!!!
Ciao. And have fun. Wished me drunk not! ((=
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Monday, July 09, 2007
Second post of the day. As I was happily watching tv. Something popped up in my mind and decided to share.
I was at work yesterday. And overheard the conversation Cheryl was having with Yeeling, my colleagues. So being super busybody, I went over and tried to find out and join in the conversation. Then, Cheryl started to tell me about her life story, being her relastionship.
So she was with this guy for about 3yrs plus. They almost got married but lucky she saw his true colours just before they got engaged. Guys and their flings, one night stand! I could tell how much Cheryl was in love with him back then. And being together for 3yrs plus, she simply know him to his veins. And just one night, her bf was caught with another girl out doing the 3-letter word. From the way Cheryl put it and the place where she hangs out at, I guessed she's not someone that easy. Ha. Unbelieveable!
And so, she called the girl and had a nice chat with her.
"Hello. I'm Cheryl. Are you with ... now?"
"No, I'm not."
"Do you know he got a girlfriend?"
"Really? I dont know anything."
bla bla bla.
Hey hey! Does this sounds familiar? Haha. So coincidence la. Same thing happened to me! But then, Cheryl got back with her bf. So I was asking her how can she endure and accept someone who had sex with another girl and yet back with her, f* her when he had entered another hole? Well, she thought he had changed. But that's not the case. She managed to find out more in later days and the girl, knowing the fact that they're back tgt, yet can happily let him f* her. WTH! Ended up, Cheryl's been single all the way till today.
So I said, "BITCH! I HATE BITCHES!"
Cheryl went, "No girl. Bitches had brain. They need to think twice before turning to bitch. But not SLUT."
Haha. Totally agree. Ya. At times, girl maybe the ignorance one who claims that they dont know the other party is attached but still, ended up becoming some slut. That's how things usually turned out to be.
So why do things always ended up in the same way. Hearing her telling me about her past was like reminding me of what happened to me. That's life. For now, single life rocks!
** to hell with those sluts ** ((=
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Was out to my girlfriend's apartment the other day. 6 of us. All feeling vex and super emo.
CCC, the forever stressful boy.
Yixing, the forever sex girl.
Hazel, the funniest.
Cher, the biggest eye.
Jl, the forever kisser.
And me, i dont know.
LOL.
There's like only the 4 of us at the balcony happily smoking, girls' talk and feeling vex over the things that happened in our life. Hazel told us her life story. It's so ridiculous that I thought can only be seen on TV. What happen to her was beyong anyone's imagination. If I was her, I'll be dead by now. I kinda feel sorry for her. Well, at least she met us. Her life will be much more happening than ever. I'll try not to laugh at her. Afterall, her life was really screwed in the past.
A big welcome to her for becoming one of our clubbing kaki! ((=
And this wed, Ladies Night. Vivi, now the hardcore clubber, asked me to Zouk. Hazel gonna be there too. And we wanna get graveyard. Had a taste of it the other time. The hardcore liquor that can get real drunk fast! Haha. And my friend just told me Rambogini cost the same. Was thinking of getting Vivi that. I wanna see her puke! But it's so troublesome to look after drunkards! Let's see. And we like can't wait for wed la.
Vivi text me, "haha, on la. get low get low get low.."
Cannot stand. But Cher, not gonna be there again. I miss our dirty dance. LOL.
Alight. Off to tv. And I sense my boredom awaiting for me for the whole of this week. Ask me out girls!! ((=
*10 yrs of friendship* And that is Rahman's destorted face.
Ciao!
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
Last night at Zouk was funnnnn. My best buds were all there. Even Cher who shouldn't go, went too. She can't resist temptation! We had Long Island Tea and I'm like the first to KO la. Damn throw face when I'm like not the first time drinking. Vivi can hold her liquor well, same goes to Roger and Cher. I was the first to vomit. And I vomitted out all the fried oyster and carrot cake we had earlier on. Next was Vivi. She had hard time vomitting in the toilet. And the girls there was like teaching her how to puke by putting 2 fingers into her mouth. Gross. So the girl was like telling the BF about Vivi and their conversation was overheard by us.
And. I went up and look after her. Finally! She vomitted out. Back at the bar with Rahman, she vomitted again. She still told us, "Just now I was too hungry so I din't munch on the carrot cake and just swallow it. Then I vomitted out a whole piece of carrot cake which has no teeth marks on it." It's god damn funny la!! LOL.
Hazel's mouth stinks big time! I'm not the only one complaining but the rest too. Even the guys are freak out by her. Ha ha. Well, that's hazel. What's new!
I'm super hyper last night. Got really high and I enjoyed dancing with Roger, Vivi and the guys. Aftermath, we were like walking around hunting for food. And the guys went teasing about the small little mole i had on my neck.
Thanks ah Roger!
So they went, "Cookie Monster! Cookie Monster! Cookie Monster!"
WTH! Rahman still said that Cookie Monster sounds so much better than Chocolate chip. It just sounds the same to me la. Insulting!
But they do have fun teasing at me la! Roger's having the most fun!! Well, but they're a bunch of nice guys. Nic's the best joker. He's got the smallest waist in the world of only 20 and the loudest voice plus stupid actions. Rahman, the guy Vivi had the most fun with. Leon, decent and hackcare attitude.
Anyway, last night was really enjoyable! Ciao ((=
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Gonna meet my sweeties soon. Catching up with life. Slack, eat, smoke at our usual place. 2-3 weeks since I last saw Cher?! Wondering how's she doing. Well, gotta get out of hse soon!!
Kinda sad that can't persuade her to join in the fun tonight. She and her whatever rashes. Pls get well soon. I miss the fun the 3 of us used to enjoy! So pls, get well real real soon!! ((= Am definately hitting zouk tonight. Disappointed, there's gonna be a smoking area and we like can't smoke openly yet have to squeeze into one area with the rest. It seriously sucks, I tell you.
Anyway, few more hours time. And we gonna party and drink like hell. It's Ladies night. So enjoy peeps.
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Just had a nice chat with dearest Yong on MSN. He's gonna join us for the party tml night over at Zouk. Vivi's friend gonna open bottle. And Yong, still the coolest, went "I dont drink ppl's drink. We share money buy Long Island Tea la!" Wa sia. Showoff. Long Island Tea! *faints* That's a super strong liquor la. And it's Yong' fav. LOL. Cannot stand him.
It' been like thousands of donkey years since I last went club/drink with him. So tml gonna sure be happening la. Plus vivi gonna be there and the problem is she dint try L.I.T before. HA! Let's see. Confirm drunk want tml. Lucky, everyone's off on thur. No job, no school. So why not, have fun. Aiya, I seriously miss Cher man. When the hell will she gets well? )=
Partying so much. Reached home only at 6am for 6 straight days in a row. Super happening la me. Haha. And I really need money for my extra entertainment that is draining me so dry. . . .
That's Yong. Grabbed his pic. Haha. Getting cooler la. No longer the Tramma we used to know. Haha. It's Wednesday night tml. So enjoy your night peeps. ((=
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Monday, July 02, 2007
I reached home at 6 in the morning. Like again, night life. But it was dramatic last night. It's my first time seeing how depress Gly is. Shocked to see her like this. Getting herself real drunk, then crying her hearts out and vomit all over. Her guy was just few doors away from us, and she missed him so much. Yet, there's no courage from her to drop by. So I did her this little favour and ended up in a mess. Well, seeing her like this just reminds me of those days when I'm depressed too.
Relationships can really bring one real down. Down to the end of the pit and letting no way to see the light again. At least, it's not so easy. Gly really put in alot into hers and yet, nothing always some out of that effort. I cried too last night, it just reminds of me. I was behaving the same way as her just weeks before. Yet I can scold her and advised on her but not myself. Kinda big time loser! Gly's guy told me, "Girls maybe the one who will get hurts the most, but they really got no idea how much the guy already went through that's why they behave in such a way."
But at least, I know the guy is true to her. For he's there to look after her when she's in such a state. And as for me, I'm speechless. It's just nightlife throughout. Partying so hard and trying to get things out of my mind. It's just so different on the outside and on the inside. Gly's home now and I guess they're back tgt. Though there's too much hurts, but I can tell he's a nice guy. All the best yeah ((=
And. I got no idea why, my life is getting more dramatic. WTH la! HAHAHA. Why in the hell do I always ended up meeting the same type of guys? Well, that's life. Gotta accept it. And, I'm loving my single life so much. For, I'm scare of guys alr. Serious. I don't wanna my life to get screwed up again.
I love staying out real late at night. ((=
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