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Thursday, May 31, 2007

Why am I being blamed for things which I never do at all? Be it at work or anything.
Why am I the one who always get accused?
Why am I the one always at the losing ends?
Why is it when I put in effort to do something good, it always turns out otherwise?

And just I received a msg from boss asking me to admit if I did steal stuff from store otherwise she's gonna pursue it. Come'on la. Go ahead. My conscience is clear. Go ahead. It's really WTH when I put in so much effort to this particular job and what i get is SHIT.

I'm so at such a bad losing end in everything. Pls be kinder to me. ((=

- and she says...# ;

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Click on the image. And it's every girls' dream. ((=

"Don't eat. If you want to see food, look into the mirror at your thighs"
"If it taste good, it's trying to kill you"
"You only fail if you stop trying"

So god damn true. And it's time for me to do something too. Just wanna shake off some fats and I will look even better. But I will start next week. LOL. I'm gonna thin down before school reopens. And I must have determination to do that! ((=

- and she says...# ;

It's gonna be a off-day for today and tml. Finally, some time to slack and rot at home. It's been such a long time since I last tasted home-cooked food. And really, time for me to get my stupid feet some message!

Anyway, I was out to Haji lane with lovely Sylvia. And oh man! Stuff over there is super super VINTAGE LA!!!! But some how, it's not my cup of tea. Firstly, it's costly. Secondly, it's gonna make me look fat in it. And lastly, it's so vintage that I dont think I dare to wear it out. LOL. But still, it's really nice place. The shit thing is I forget to bring my cam out! WTH. Nvm, I gonna go there again to get that red vintage bag. Super love it and I wanna get it soon before it's gone! Off to shopping in town after that and bought some stuff. Total damage $150. Super broke now.

Ohya. I went to gay pub, TABOO that night. Indeed, an eye-opener for me. The guys there are so urban-male with great body builds and nice face features but so sad they're gays. And on the dancefloor I'm the only girl yet they spend no effort to even take a look at me. But truth is, they're real friendly. ((=

And this Fri is his big-day. It's gonna be his birthday celebration. Totally no idea where to head and I need money! Suffer huge damage and pls pay day be here soon!!!! I wanna get my hair-do! And shopping spree caauseeeeeee it's GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!!!!!!!!!!!! Girls, let shop till we drop.

Have a great week ahead ((=

- and she says...# ;

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

I really cannot stand my boss. Though she's good, but it seems that she's taking big advantage of me! Initally my pay was $3.12/hr and that sent me into a rage. I'm so angry with the amount of pay so I only earn $500+ for working a full month. Wth! Then she offered to pay me $5/hr asking me not to leave. On the account that she's good, thus I continued.

But she just called me earlier on giving me lotsa excuses saying that she can't afford the pay cause she's at losing end bla bla bla. Main point is, she took back what she said and only paid me $4/hr. WTH la!!! Damnit! Fucking little okay. It's like so pathetic. Not even enough to pay for my own transport.

Time for me to haunt for another job. A better-paying job. (=

- and she says...# ;

Sunday, May 13, 2007

and He said to me last night,

"don't worry. We will be together soon. And We will start everything afresh."

((=

You're the one I will always kiss.
You're the one I will always miss.
You're the one I will always love.

- and she says...# ;

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Baby, I miss you so much.
Have I ever tell you how much I wish to get back to you.

I miss the good old times.
I miss the gym-ing session.
I miss the jokes we shared.
I miss the hugs and kisses from you.
I miss the times where we shared everything.

the way I tell myself to carry on with life.
the way I tell myself it doesn't hurt at all.
are all just excuses for myself when actually,
deep down in my heart
I miss you so.

if only, I don't drink
if only, I don't club
if only, I'm a good girl
if only, I'm understanding

and I believe I will.

It's been so hard baby.
if only a one last chance is given to both of us.

I want everything to start all over again.

- and she says...# ;

Saturday, May 05, 2007

yesterday was a ORBIT day for me. Monday=slack thus without much thinking I just anyhow dress up and left for town to work. WTH. Then I realise I'm so orbit la. I swear my whole life, I'm not gonna wear pants/jeans again! Never again. Seriously, so not me! Worse of all, i forget to DRAW MY EYEBROW!! Imagine. WTH.

Freaking bad day!

Something even worst happened today! Was out smoking with my boy and as usual, I just litter the ciggs butt. And guess what, my boy did that too as he was too engrossed in our chat. Resulted, WE GOT CAUGHT FOR LITTERING CIGGS BUTT. Worst thing that happened today. I was let off as I'm a girl thus given a chance. But not him, he got a fine. We've learnt our lesson.

But it's okay, for me. I've got my pay. I've just dyed my hair to blue black and trimmed it abit. Bought my fav contact lens today! Happy girl now ((=

Ohya. I'm gonna have a change of job soon.

- and she says...# ;

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Too much emotions.

Too much conflicts.

Too much problems.

I shall not blog that often.

((=

It's gonna be a busy life ahead.

- and she says...# ;